Pillow Talk

Just a quick one…. are memes, quotes, gifs etc. Triggering or helpful?

For me, when I when I really think about it… it’s totally dependent on the context and content.

Not too long ago I was terribly suicidal, I’d planned it, put it into motion and so forth. My friends end up realising something wasn’t right and contacted my family to intervene (that’s for another post). Of course that didn’t mean that I was suddenly NOT suicidal.

There were a few things that helped me… a big one was antidepressants but another that really stood out was a quote that someone close to me sent. I remember reading it at the time and feeling her pain at the thought of loosing me. I felt guilt and the pain I would feel if I lost her to suicide. The quote made me realise that I needed to be here for my loved ones just as much as I need them.

This letter is to you.

The you that’s had a rough week. The you that seems to be under constant storm clouds. The you that feels invisible. The you that doesn’t know how much longer you can hold on. The you that has lost faith. The you that always blames yourself for everything that goes wrong. To you.

You are incredible. You make this world a little it more wonderful. You have so much potential & so many things left to do. You have time. Better things are coming your way, so please hang in there. You can do it

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There have been a number of times that I’ve been scrolling through IG and seen some very unsavoury and insensitive posts/memes about eating disorders or mental health. Personally I don’t find it triggering, just infuriating. But I know it is triggering for some!

Strangely enough, what I do find triggering on social media, is body positive pages! … before I say anything GOD FOR YOU, YOU GO GIRL 👧🏽 I wish I could be that happy with my figure……. but hang on , let’s circle back round! That’s exactly the problem, I’m not.

So not only do people with ED’s see ‘skinny mini’ models plastered everywhere, giving us false hope. But there are also super positive plus size models making us feel guilty for not loving ourselves the way we are -( again, only speaking from personal experience)

Anyway, I’m going off on a social media tangent now. My original point is that there are some positive vibes online too.

When I was realllllyyyy struggling with a break up a few years ago, I stopped eating and drinking, stoped turning up to work…. I was a mess and couldn’t see how my life was going to carry on! My friend sent me this quote. I love it and always refer to it.

It basically says that we can’t have the good without the bad and everything negative will make us stronger which is so true. After I received this quote I fixed up, looked sharp and got my road to recovery back on track!

You can’t skip chapters, that’s not how life works. You have to read every line, meet every character. You won’t enjoy all of it. Hell, some chapters will even make you cry for weeks. You will read things you don’t want to read, you will have moments when you don’t want the pages to end. But you have to keep going. Stories keep the world revolving. Live yours, don’t miss out

Pillow thoughts, chapter II

Let me know your pillow talk thoughts on quotes & memes… good, bad? Have you had to delete social media because of triggers? Or is it helpful towards your recovery?

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